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Here are the out of body experiences that I thought were too short for their own entries.

2008/02/17
6:50 P.M. - 7:10 P.M.
After two weeks without success, I initiated an OBE and made it about a foot above the top of my head. Almost right away, something… squished me back down, or yanked me back in.

The sense of movement and bodily (Out-of-bodily? Bodiless?) support seemed to me, to be helped or hindered by this gumminess in the air, and I guessed for this session the same “force” just moved in a way that meant I’d get snapped back in if I peeked out.

At least, from that, I found out not only that I could still project at all (because I’d been wondering why it didn’t seem to be getting any easier...) and that I can project from a location other than my regular meditation spot. This being my quickest OBE, not only the experience being quick but initiating the experience, I took that as progress.


2008/05/31
2:20 - 4:12 PM
In my fourth OBE, I noticed myself acting out of character. In my fifth OBE, that escalated so that I actually attempted, while out of body, to find some random spirit entity on that plane and have sex. There, I said it. So. Mahadevi, my psychic mentor since the events of the previous entry-mash, was told about this, and told me, as the maternal gay man to my Sibling’s fag-haggery, as High Priestess and a quite talented member of a local troupe of ghost hunters, and as a friend… I was going too far.

And I took that under due consideration before continuing my attempts to initiate another OBE. Even after having a cloud of sudden almost-pains and exhaustion come over me the same time that Mahadevi went head-to-head with the energy-form of me that caused me to act that way during the sessions… I kept trying, figuring I guess that if I can achieve an OBE in these conditions, then I can do so anytime.

The next time I found myself out of my body, in my room, I focused my mind to the Lucid Crossroads mirror. I had explored lucid dreaming a little bit, but never made it to the Crossroads before to test if the mirror and pool truly did lead to an OBE. It ought to work both ways, then— during an OBE, I should be able to go through the pool or mirror and into the Lucid Crossroads. I’d already keep slipping into dreamlike experiences during OBE’s, sure, but this would bridge it in my mind officially.

Too bad it didn’t happen. After focusing, and letting the setting sort of fade out, the next thing I knew I was once again trapped in someone else’s body. I don’t know how to drive, but my arm moved over the steering wheel with skillful familiarity. This new body flicked her gaze over to the rearview mirror, so I too could see these rustic jeeps following our own jeep on this mountain path. At that angle, I couldn’t see this new face, but wished I could because the arm and hand looked exactly like mine.

“I’m dreaming,” I decided, and repeated it to myself: “I’m really dreaming. Really, I’m dreaming.” But strain as I might I still couldn’t take control of that arm. I focused to move out and away again, and when the setting fell away and reformed, my face felt like it was being pressed against what looked like a blue carpet-y surface. “Just dreaming,” I continued repeating to myself, as I strained to change the scene. For a moment I seemed to right myself, catching sight of Sibling’s face as she giggled, and then I couldn’t move up from a light tan-colored carpet.

All the while, my awareness seemed to also be dipping back into my body every few seconds, so I just stopped trying to block that out and came back to myself.

Later I found out that Mahadevi just went ahead with a binding, and used Sibling as a sympathetic link.


2008/06/04
Psions, taking as given that there is an independent plane with forms of individual intelligence, sometimes ask if someone who is out of body can pull an in-body individual out of their body. From what I’ve seen, most other psions say it’s either dangerous or that it can’t be done… but, I’ve never seen them say, “I know it’s impossible/dangerous because I’ve tried.”

So, I initiated an OBE for the purpose of going to someone to pull them out of body – and, yup, it can't be done. I know because I tried.

Well, okay, it’s more like I suspect because I failed. I can’t put a number to how thoroughly or skillfully I tried, either: I just got out, focused on the subject (what I sensed of him, which was very little— he was just someone over the net who asked people to help him out of body), let the scene change, and had about 3 seconds to look around a strange bedroom with nobody there before I snapped back into myself. When I described it to the subject, he said that it sounded like his room all right, but I never figured out why I didn’t see him there.

2008/06/29
Couldn't mark the time, because it wasn't at a blocked-off couple of hours in the afternoon like I usually plan. My head wasn't orientated to magnetic North, actually I wasn't so much meditating as taking advantage of a deep and sudden sleepiness to play with my sense of location, setting it much further than I usually set it for OBEs.

Thing is, I couldn't really see this time-- I just felt myself "peeling" away from my physical body, but when vision came to me it wasn't of my bedroom first (like it usually is.) It was some kind of cellar or locker room. A man who was with me, was talking about some kind of test... so I opened one of the very slim lockers and eased my way in, expecting it to lead into another realm when the testing would begin, but the guy or the OBE “force” pulled me out and away from it, all the way back into my body. So, that was weird.


2008/09/06
4:30 to 6:15 PM

This exit was an odd one, a sort of hiccup/cough-ing out of awareness. I focused my mind to another location, and failed at this making the scene change. The world just wouldn’t budge. So, I didn't even go far from my meditation spot, but… I began to feel myself as a fiery whirlwind circling against the grain of the world.

After that I saw forms of entities in the room, neither malignant nor benign, but there were so many of them. The whirlwind hadn’t stopped, either, so I could hardly make them all out. I had a sense of stories and ideas being thrown about, but it was really all so vague and exciting that I let myself fade back into bodily consciousness and let most of the memory of this confusing experience fade away.


2009/05/28
I've been frustrated at not experiencing any relation between OBE and sleep paralysis, when, according to random other sources I can't remember so this is probably just inferred, the latter is required for the former.

I was mildly apprehensive about the sleep paralysis this morning, but it wasn't like the usual: mind screaming "MOVE! Move NOW or you They will EAT! YOUR!! SOUL!!!" so loudly that I can hardly think of anything else to do. This time, I relaxed back into sleep, hoping for a lucid dream. The sight of the room around me darkened to the black behind sleeping eyelids... and then... the feel of my awareness, felt like it was slithering out of the feel of my sleeping body.

There's not much else to write. Next I remember, I was dreaming about having to find some formal clothes in time for a party, and the time was so tight that I undressed and re-dressed in front of everybody-- and, I thought, if they blushed or raised a fuss, it was their problem. At least I wouldn't be the one to make them all late.

For the time in-between, I don't know. It felt like an OBE, except that I can usually see during OBE's. It didn't seem to last long-- it was just the feeling I described, then, mindscape-skip.