Almost An OBE

This afternoon, I felt like giving this another ago. I massaged my face, my jaw, the back of my neck and shoulders (which have grown very tense), and stretched out my extremities, and then let both my mind and body relax until my mind was blank and and my whole body felt like it was only being supported by the thing it was lying down on (except for the breath).

The blank mind and total relaxation came much easier than I thought it would.

After that it was just a matter of losing attention to the breath, and thinking of the air in front of my face, and then the air in front of the air in front of my face.

This also happened with much less interference.

The next thing I remember, my sense of gravity shifted. I felt as if I were belly-down and falling through the air, with this blur of horizontal dark and light bars flashing through my vision. It slowed into a view of the room that I was meditating in, from the place that I had been meditating in-- so, I was "in" my body as I am used to experiencing being "in" my body, and my gravity was back to my back since I was on my back-- and I could see the room around me. There was this wind that seemed to be blasting from the (closed, in waking physical life) windows behind me, or as if that whole wall where the windows would be, was not there. Nothing I could see was being blown away, the blinds weren't even moving, but there was the sound and the feel of a strong blast of wind as if through a gaping passageway (that wasn't there.)

I don't believe that I managed to separate. The black-and-white bars and the feeling of falling, I would judge as part of the phase between the in-body-experience and the experience of being out of body. The next thing was to keep this total sense of equanimity, even a "lala, I don't care" attitude... and I found out this afternoon that I couldn't do that after being dropped several storeys and into a windstorm. And then I didn't even get a moment of sleep paralysis before snapping back to this solid, windless place where I could move and wasn't in a meditative mindset.

I used to be able to retain the right state of mind to get through this stage. But, I think that I failed for positive reasons. My instincts and emotions are working well again, and the sleep paralysis glitch that caused me so much aggravation didn't feature noticeably at all. I believe that not everyone who successfully initiates an OBE is depressed, or had symptoms of depression to help them, so I hope to find a way to successfully initiate an OBE that doesn't rely on that state. Hey, I got this far!