So Emo

In other news, I've also done psychic surgery on myself again. This was for a slightly rough emotional patch. I could feel the gunk building up in my back again, and I thought that it was a mundane somatization of the emotion. Irritation can cause headaches; there's the sinking feeling in the pit of the stomach, that might be dread; I thought that this was heartbreak, with just a little extra something that felt familiar... but the previous time that I took to psychic surgery on myself, didn't have an emotional component. Except for afterwards, which was relief. And that was more of a reaction than an effect, if I may split hairs over this.

I went through the motions of ripping the gunk out, and it helped immensely.

Which made me wonder: how much of emotions are metaphysical? Did my emotions generate that gunk? Or, were my emotions a mundane reaction to the presence of that metaphysical gunk?

I haven't even figured out what that gunk is, other than "harmful when it's there so I had better move it somewhere else". I have figured out a way to get it off when it sticks to my hands, though: imaginarium fire. I wonder why I don't just annex the inside of my own torso to a door in my imaginarium and keep a fire going in there so I don't have to keep ripping gunk out. It sounds weird, sure, but I think I passed weird when I started this blog.

I don't consider myself an empath. I believe that I can pick up on metaphysical clouds of metaphysical stuff, and I believe that its nature is often informed by intent, and a person's emotions can greatly influence intent... but, I've just never been keenly attuned to other people's emotions. I've been sympathetic, or even projected my own issues on others. I'm not sure about picking up on energy or information that come from what I recognize as emotion. The closest I've gotten, is either being sympathetic, or projecting my own emotions on somebody else.

Perhaps if I developed this, then I might have a better understanding as to how it works. Part of me suspects that "emotion" might have a less objective nature than the word lets on.